Normally, in this time of year, I take time to write down the “resolutions” that I doubt I’ll keep, the greats of yesteryear, and the hopes for the year to come. That’s normal. I’m not normal, in case you hadn’t quite figured that out
This year, I want to do my absolute best at becoming a better person. I want to be transparent. I want to be humbled. I want to relearn living in the grace of Yeshua and our Father. I want to learn to take up my cross daily, follow Him, and by following, perhaps I’ll lead others to Him as well. I want to STUDY the Word, not just read it. I want to learn to apply it to my life, and I aim to hide it in my heart.
I want to learn more about how Christ and the Church are married (metaphorically speaking). I want to learn how to be a faithful and loving wife, submitting to Yeshua and my (soon-to-be) husband.
I want to put others first. If this means giving up money/time/resources because a friend/acquaintance/random stranger needs help, great! It’s not going to be easy, but I want to do it.
At Church today, we studied Jeremiah in Sunday School. I use “study” loosely. In my mind, study is like sitting in a college classroom where you dig into what the Bible says, talk about your issues with it, and wrestle it out. We just talked. Anyways, during church, prior to the preaching, I read the first chapter or so of Jeremiah. “See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant.” (Jeremiah 1:10) It struck me that before God told Jeremiah he’d build and plant, there was a lot of “doom and gloom.” Basically, Jeremiah wasn’t given an easy job… He was to clean house before rebuilding. He was to basically destroy an already breaking people. Once that happened, he’d rebuild, he’d plant. How often do I neglect the need for destruction and go straight to rebuilding. How can I rebuild if the foundation is shoddy? I can but the building wouldn’t stand. Sometimes one really needs to rock the foundation in order to rebuild. Pour concrete down, make it solid, and then build up. To take the rocks out of the field before planting. Common sense? Maybe, but I often forget about this part of life. (ok, sermon over.)
This year, I want to be able to read the Scriptures anew, and apply them to my life.
I want a lot of things for this year… but we’ll see what happens…