Last night, as Brandon and I talked on Skype, we went to our old xangas (way back in the day) and started reading them. Between him and my friend Josh, I usually had a comment or two on most of my posts. And then I made a new xanga because an old friend that I strongly dislike started commenting on it and so I needed anonymity and Brandon would post there too. Wow. Those were the days! It’s been 3 years since I updated this particular xanga.
About four years ago, my best friend died in a car accident… and I was devastated. I was hurt, confused, and really angry that this guy, of all the guys I know, would die in a car accident. Let me explain. He was the only guy I trusted enough to drive Black Beauty (who’s got a manual transmission), even if I, for some reason wasn’t in the car with him. He was one of the safest drivers I knew, and he died in a car accident, and I hated him for it.
Well, I blogged about it… And Brandon responded with “*hugs* no poke, I promise.”
Last weekend when we met up with Brandon’s friend from way back when (I knew who he was, but didn’t really know him…) I confessed that I stopped poking Brandon in Harry Potter VI because I didn’t want it to be construed with flirting, especially since I didn’t know where he stood on me (and whether he liked me… which he does, obviously!) And Brandon, basically, said that he was concerned that I didn’t like him because I wasn’t poking him. I’m so glad we’ve got that straightened out!
It’s really interesting to see how different I am now than I was four years ago. I’m so glad I’m not the same person! but at the same time, parts of me want part of that girl back. Ok, raise your hand if I confused you. *Raises hand* ok, I’m sorry about that. Basically, there are some parts of me from four years ago that are hiding and I want them out in the open! Dagnabbit!
But it is really interesting to see how I’ve changed in the 3 years I kept up that xanga. I really do have adhd when it comes to blogging!
Here’s to hoping that you’ll be able to see another post entitled something along the lines of “Nostalgia 2” in a couple of years and actually know what I’m talking about!